I’m going to give away a little of myself as a sports fan and tell you, today I called an audible. For those of you who are football fans, you get the analogy. If you aren’t, an audible is when the quarterback changes the play on the line of scrimmage in the seconds before the ball is snapped. I had a post ready for today, and it was uncharacteristically somber for me. In a nutshell, I’ve found myself struggling lately, having lost sight of all that I have in the shimmery fog of all that I want. To quote my previously written, then scratched blog post ‘I could share the internal conversations I’ve been having, but I’ll spare you the gritty, melodramatic details. Let’s just say there’s a healthy mixture of envy, irritation, frustration and impatience.’
Thankfully, one well-timed blog post and two nuggets of information saved my spiral. For starters, Bookends, Literacy Agency posted a short and sweet kick-you-in-the-pants-and-keep-your-eyes-on-the-prize blog post about believing in yourself and your story. It struck a nerve with me, in the best possible way, and helped me to remember what’s most important. I believe in all my stories, but Nathan, my first-born protagonist, has taught me so much. I believe in Nathan, and I believe in his story. That should be all the motivation I need to keep pushing on. Sure, I’ll keep wrestling with doubt. It’s only natural to think that I’ll feel incredibly self-conscious as this journey continues, this is all uncharted waters. But I owe it to Nathan, and the others, to keep putting one foot in front of the other.
Secondly, I found out about two conferences that are, believe it or not, in my neck of the woods, and both in October. The best news, both are both being visited by agents I was hoping to query. Coincidence? I don’t believe in such things. I need to sit with this a while, but I’m sure we’ll talk more about it one day.
Then earlier this evening, I had a small revelation. My natural instinct is to move fast. I’m decisive and quick to act. I value efficiency in others consider that, at times, one of my strongest traits. You don’t need to know much about the publishing industry to know that it operates at a very different speed. I can be patient, but this persistent patience is a beast of a different color. So, I have a choice; I can continue to resist the slower and more deliberate pace of this industry, making headache and heartache for myself, or I can reset and realign, embracing the time that I’ve been given to sharpen my skills. No doubt this lesson will be a work in progress, but let’s get started.
So. I have two conferences on my horizon, with an entire summer ahead of me to hone my skills, read more picture books, and fill my tool box. The other manuscripts waiting in my wonderful blue binder can now get the attention they deserve, and I can continue to document my journey and expand my network. I think this sounds like a mighty fine game plan indeed.
Down, Set, Hut…
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